Well I take it back,
I'm the happiest i've ever been. I was sat in the bathtub this evening when I finally realised what actually I am proud of myself.
I earn my own money, I'm going to university in another (technically) country in September, I have some of the best friends and the nicest of friendships with some lovely people and although my relationship with my family is volatile, I miss them when they're gone for even a day.
I do well in exams and I'm some what decent at dancing. I have an interest in the world around me and I ask questions rather than take opinion as fact. I'm finally comfortable with the way I look, although if I keep eating all the pizza at work im going to get too comfortable!
Actually, I'm ten times a stronger person than I was this time six months ago. I used to be so dependant on what peoples opinions were of me, and I only focused on the bad things people said. I was constantly looking for the approval from someone that I was never going to get.
It's February 2012 and I'm actually happy.
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